Is the world getting meaner or is my perception of it changing?
I grew up in a bubble of love and laughter, with a lot of denial and avoidance of negativity and discourse. Dad’s unspoken philosophy was “as long as we’re laughing together we’re close and everything’s ok!”
I have to admit it was a pretty effective strategy. It wasn’t until I was well into my twenties when my first therapist pointed out laughter is fun and can be a wonderful thing, AND it is not the equivalent of intimacy. To have deep and meaningful relationships, we must be vulnerable with each other and vulnerability means knowing and showing our true selves, risking disagreements and even arguments. However, if the only kind of discourse we’ve experienced is out of control, disrespectful, and even emotionally mentally or physically abusive, it’s no wonder we often gravitate towards avoidance and positivity.
As I’ve grown in understanding and age, I’ve learned healthy communication involves clear boundaries, mutual respect, and trust. With these agreements in place, disagreements and arguments can be safely experienced.
As I’ve mentioned in some of my previous posts, I grew up in the shadow of an emotionally volatile person who was a few years older than me. She was at once both beautiful and talented and unpredictable and manipulative. At times she was kind and actually extravagant in her giving, and at other times hateful and explosive. I learned early on to “walk on eggshells” and “tap dance” my way into her good graces. She was both my idol and the source of my greatest anxiety and fear.
As most of us do, I carried much of what I learned in my family of origin to my new, young family. When our boys argued and fought I became frightened and irate, forbidding such behavior probably to the point of stifling their personal feelings and opinions. The cohesiveness and happiness of our family unit was more important than personal expression.
We can’t teach what we don’t know.
I didn’t know how to navigate anger and conflict so how could I teach it to my children?
I’m learning how to disagree with those I love. It’s scary. I’m in healthier, safer relationships and discovering we can actually learn from our disagreements when we discuss them with respect.
So, back to my question, is the world getting meaner? Maybe it is in some ways. I think the pandemic ironically brought us further to the edge of our mental and emotional well being than our physical health. Polarizing politics, social media, the internet, climate change, and what seems to be an excessive amount of natural disasters have exacerbated an already fragile environment. However, I think my perception has changed more than the world has. Any short history lesson will show the hatred of humankind has always existed.
In my understanding, hate isn’t even a primary emotion.
Hate is a reaction to a deep seated feeling of either fear or betrayal which at its core is grief.
So instead of asking the question “is the world meaner,” we each would learn more by asking “Am I kinder than I used to be?” Now that’s worth asking, because when we ask ourselves this question we can honestly evaluate our own feelings and behaviors and if we find ourselves lacking in love, humility, joy, curiosity, openness, compassion, and empathy, we can do better, and if enough of us do this, the world will truly be a better place.